It's actually pretty amazing the amount of people who have power over others and still are not horrible humans. Like, people could be much worse than (a lot) already are.

I say this only because I'm in an advantageous position right now to "rectify" (in quotations because I'm not deluded) a situation. Long enough ago I was triggered to my core like never before. I never got back at the person but I just haven't been able to shake the disrespect. For the longest time I wanted an apology. For a really long time. Nowadays I would like to do something a bit more damning. Unfortunately for the worst parts of me, I believe in God. Still, I feel a calling and strong pull to "rectify" and pacify these feelings inside. It's actually so strong. Then I'll see a beautiful passage from the Bible and think, "how wonderful I didn't go through with it". Even with these better thoughts, I still live in the reality of the present situation. I have access to the individual. It would be wonderful if it was a simple 'out of sight, out of mind' situation. Vengeance isn't for me to have, though. I know it, I know it. My mind just can't rest when I'm reminded.

Girls yearn to terrorize 😔 I'm holding strong, but please pray for me.