I love a good story. Like, a story that is so fictional it can only force you into it, the delusion.

I feel like right now I'm living in some type of delusion. Fully aware, but it can feel so good to think and believe things that aren't true.

I used to have this weird coping (?) mechanism. I don't even know if it really helped, but I think it helped me feel a little less alone with my thoughts.

I wish someone could just join me in my brain. I don't know if I've ever fully shared myself with anyone. Whenever I've gotten close to sharing myself something would come up. Something always impedes. It's like watching a show and some huge scene is about to take place, but then...it ends. Cliffhanger. Power goes out. Story gets cancelled. Then you never get to see what was supposed to happen!

I feel like I'm living in that state more often than not. Being so close to something huge, something right on the edge of what I want or need or have become interested in after not paying mind.

It's crazy. I wish we could pause time a little so I could just try something else