well one of the most wonderful times of the year for me at least. i was planning to only highlight the obvious subject for americans of father's day but then while doing some doodling i decided to play one of my playlists that has been baking in the fucking oven for a bit and the alarm finally WENT OFF..and the center is firm and tender. so i mean we're going to do that too.

but also i mean being a girlie of course it went back to me the girlie.

on the part 1. honestly one of the perks as a non man non cootied non weiner holder person but purely as an observant outsider i always thought it was really neat that the daddydom identity already has his own special day created at least in america dedicated to him. just like with both days of the mother's day and the father's day many have already understood it's a day to honor the nurturing qualities and characteristics and beings and actions and doings of one side of the chromosome spectrum..and can also be morphed to fit whatever gender identity the person they choose or the people they choose to celebrate during the time. i defiantly see father's day a day to celebrate all the butch women who are daddies as well as the heterosexual straight men and everything in between that spectrum.

i'm a ritualistic person and i'm person that likes structure. which isn't that shocking since my entire 98% gig of documenting/sharing/discussing on here is in a context of bdsm(i still am so ready to start talking about things with the terms and context i've been percolating on for awhile but that hasn't fully cooked yet so i'm stuck with antiquated terms when talking about specifics that i really don't fully align or connect with).

when i think of ways of expressing the love and specialness that comes with honoring the father vibes in the masculine i tend to think about going specific words wise. love and special get thrown around but the context is always unclear. what love means for one person means completely different for another. one person is an apple of someone's eyes and that same person is a trash dump of burning poo to another.

clarity, context, and making sure it's received i think is the best way to go about things to make sure generic terms are better absorbed in the mind of the person you are actively communicating with.

when i think of taking time to show love and point out the specialness this day is calling out, i attribute it in these ways:

respect

honor

cherish

surrender

admire

tenderness

joy

piety

envelop

care

reverence

most of that is coming at a different angle than i would a woman who is more flowy more soft more supple. but with something more hardened and square and sturdy it just feels more right.

next

this playlist i've entitled 'excited little headspace'...this is going to be definately a living playlist that will be added to and extended, but how it is right now is a complete and perfect foundation.

mixes a bit of goth, a bit of synthpop, a bit of synthwave, a bit of techno, a bit of dubstep, a bit of pop, a bit of rock a mix and mesh.

but what kind of sound is inside of the head when a lady drops down into her girlhood?

probably something like this.

because no one has created or i don't know of an app that you can auto reset the speed/pitch and transpose it's not quite the sweet spot i'm learning it.

it's best at a 2 transpose and .20 pitch with a regular speed. some need it a bit faster some a bit tweaked..but that's a general better vibe.

when i found this with a few i've only heard in the normal production it just sent the vibe and emotion even higher into that tender soft smol bean space.

this also really gave me some THIS NEEDS TO BE MADE ON IT'S OWN VIBES moments as well which was super schweet.