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whale. shit.

if you don't feel like reading all this ramble-y introspective bullshit then just skip all the way to the bottom for the important stuff.

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i don't know how i got here, i really don't. i'm pretty sure i've said that at least fifty times over the last year and a half i've had this account.

in the grand scheme of things, i know most people think 500 followers is not all that much in the audio world, especially compared to how many thousands of followers other creators might have. but i’m learning to celebrate my accomplishments more, small or big. so wooooo go kar 💃🥳🎉

a quick recap of the last 1.5 years:

i found my passion for creative writing again after years of mental block. i felt good about what i wrote for the first time in a very, very long time, and actually finished things instead of leaving them incomplete in my google drive.

i learned how to take care of myself better physically and mentally, and gained way more confidence as a result. i’m recognizing more unhealthy habits and behaviors in myself and others, and doing what i can to change these in myself and encourage change in the people i care about. i can also talk about the dirtiest nastiest shit with my irl college friends without batting an eyelid now cause of all you horny freaky fucks. i finished undergrad and got my degree (with honors ✨) in the middle of a pandemic. and also went through a major post-grad existential crisis and summer depression which was suuuuper fun.

i made lots of friends, including people that i admired and looked up to so much. i met people who i wanted to stay friends with for the rest of my life. but more than a few of those friendships also ended along the way. i lost contact with people i thought the world of, lost friendships that sting to this day. still miss them very very much though.

there were tough days where i was really mad at myself. there were days that made me wish i could erase every trace of myself off the internet and disappear. there were days where i wished i'd never found audios and never started writing scripts at all.

i've had the highest of highs and the lowest of lows in my kinda short time here as a writer. i think in this short period i went through probably some of the biggest changes in my life, and that’s due in part to the stories i was able to write, and all the people i was so sooo lucky to meet, who encouraged me to keep going. so in the end i’m happy with where i’m at.

after the time i spent away from scripts and audios because of school, it's been hard for me to get back to the rhythm i had before, when i could post a 2500 word script twice, even three times, a month. i don’t know if i’ll ever get back to that kind of grind again, or if i even want to honestly. one important thing that i’ve learned is that while this whole audio world can be a fun place to hang out, you gotta make sure you don’t get lost in it, or any purely online space, which is what i’ve been trying to do nowadays.

so i can’t promise i’ll be more active or faster script turnover. but i do promise to keep writing for as long as it’s fun and i’m good at it.

cause yeah. this shit’s pretty fun. and after more than a year of making people cry over fictional porn, i think i can say i’m pretty good at it.

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thank you so so sooo much for following me and helping me reach this milestone. the fact that my writing has reached and resonated with so many people is still unreal to me, but i can't thank you all enough for sticking with me, even during my almost year-long hiatus. i'm eternally grateful for every script fill, upvote, comment, and view that y'all have given me. i hope to write my silly little porn scripts for a good while, and i hope you’ll still be here to read them all.

i don't know if y'all are interested at all in me doing something more to celebrate, like an AMA or bigger script project (pls don't ask me for a sequel im begging u). but if you are let me know in the comments or in my anonymous feedback form HERE. no promises tho bro lmao.

if not then just upvote for 500 more years of kar porn scripts ❤️‍🔥

i’ll catch y’all when i hit 1k followers in 2035 👍