What do I mean by that? Well, I'm no longer scared of just ending it all. I know the exact method I wanna do it by now. Did you know that while paracetamol's easy to get, it can also be lethal? I just thought it'd be a fun fact to mention.

Anyway, I'm kinda scared but I assume that's just my survival instinct. I went into way more detail on my alt /u/jacobkrin2 about how I've been feeling lately. And well? It's not great. But I'm at a point where the loneliness is starting to get too unbearable for me to handle. So what have I decided to do? Well, paracetamol's kinda cheap, isn't it? That's all I need to say about that.

Don't be surprised if any time soon I'm gone. There's quite a few people who have tried to help me, and while that's touching it doesn't feel like enough. I think at this point, the only thing that could stop me is romance, and well we already know how badly that's going for me. So you know. It's nearly impossible to stop what'll be happening to me anymore.

I might be a coward for taking the easy way out, but the pain I keep going through because of this loneliness is too much for me to deal with. I've gone through more than enough pain, so this is fine right? Maybe if people never joked about confessing to me, it wouldn't have gotten this far. Well, that's all I can say. Maybe by the time anyone's reading this I'll be better? Hah, I doubt it