I really feel so sorry for you. I wish you didn't have to go through what you were going through right now. I wish you were able to free yourself without having to worry about any consequences, since it's so terrible to hear about what's happening to you now.

You don't need to feel sorry for having to block people because of it, as it isn't your fault in the slightest. After all, how could you have known that things would get to this point? You were so happy at first but now you're having to go through this.

I have no clue if you have any way to read this, but I hope the methods of comforting yourself have managed to help you, even if it's just a little bit. I hope you've still got the plush I gave to you, as I'm sure having stuff like that reminds you that even if you're not able to communicate directly right now, you'll still have physical evidence that people care for you.

You don't deserve to go through this. No one does. But why does it have to happen to you specifically? If I could take your place and go through your suffering I'd do it in a heartbeat, as you deserve to go through the rest of your life being happy instead of fearful.

I haven't been able to stop thinking about you since it happened. I don't think I'll be able to stop thinking about you or what you're going through. I hope you'll find a way to leave before your birthday, as birthdays are meant to be fun & happy days, not exactly a time you wanna be sad during.

I've tried to do stuff to distract myself in the last few days, but no matter what I still haven't been able to stop thinking about you or get you out of my mind. Not that I would even if I had the opportunity.

No matter what, I really miss you right now, and I'll still miss you for as long as I know. I really wanna chat to you again when you get the chance. I both miss and care about you more than you could know. There's still so many things we talked about that we need to do. No matter how long it takes, I'll be waiting for you.