i kept on learning and working it filled a hole in my heart. I felt happier than i was ever before until eventually i learned how to bake a cake and make some cake as the customer order. It felt something warming in my heart, its a way for me to express my affection and joy. Something about baking and making sweets makes me so happy and felt loved, the madness on my mind caused by my horrible intrusive thought left something in me however i was never a bad person. I got so obsessed in baking and seeing my customer smile by my creation. Gradually something cultivates in my heart its that i should love myself and everyone around me. I learned how to love myself slowly but steady and so i learned to see the beauty in everyone and myself. Life has been bad but it still gives me the opportunity to smile.

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