I don't know if anyone can truly pinpoint where in their lives the switch flipped and we realized that maybe we wanted something more.

I think, for me, it was when I was about 19 years old. I had been with my high school sweetheart for 4 years and he broke up with me. I was devastated, but a friend who I'll call Cowboy came back into my life. I'd had a huge crush on him all throughout high school, even while dating my ex. Cowboy started calling, texting, checking in on me. One of my favorite things to do with him was he would pick me up when he got off work and we'd just go driving. We'd talk for hours about everything, and we eventually ended up on the topic of sex one night. I was still a virgin, but had done just about everything else (including anal) other than vaginal sex, but when I admitted to him that my ex had never been able to give me an orgasm, I thought Cowboy was going to come to a dead stop on the highway. He slowly turned to me, and in one of the hottest moments of my life, quietly said,

"Let me give you one right now."

I was nervous- he had a girlfriend and I had just gotten out of a serious relationship. But I was also extremely attracted to him and really wanted to experience someone else being able to give me an orgasm. When I nervously giggled and asked him "like , right here right now?" He just continued driving, and I was feeling let down.

Until I realized where we were going. He pulled into the parking lot of the first hotel we came to, got us a room, and he spent most of that night using his hands to give me some of the most intense orgasms I've ever had, while also fucking my ass. One of my favorite memories was when I realized the closet doors were floor to ceiling mirrors and I slid Cowboy's dick in my ass while I rode reverse cowgirl and he guided my hand over my pussy, rubbing and stroking until I was shaking. And I watched the whole thing in the mirror.

That was one of the first nights I realized what my body was capable of, and from that point on, I wanted more.