This is a true story and tells of the struggles and tribulations I faced. I'm a good-hearted person and I love my husband, but while he was deployed I got high and drunk and I caused a serious accident. I cannot change that and have asked for forgiveness. But the two men in my life have saved me from myself. This story has serious details but does have sexual content as well.

Jack and I got married in March 2016 and in April he was being deployed. We had just moved into our house and we were putting everything on hold until he returned. I was nervous about living alone and Jack had suggested that our friend Eric could check in on me and he could tend to me sexually as well. Then there was no need for me to cheat. This was a big step, I had not thought of Eric in that way but Jack and I trusted Eric and we knew that would be willing to respect our boundaries. We invited Eric over on the Saturday before Jack was going to leave and asked him if he would be willing to check in on me while Jack was gone and if he would be interested in being in an amorous relationship with me (while Jack was deployed). Eric was surprised by the question but agreed to keep it discrete and said he would be willing to start whenever I was ready.

Two weeks later, I texted Eric and I invited him over. I felt a slight feeling of guilt because Jack wasn't there but I knew that I had his permission. I had never sexually thought about Eric but he is good-looking, 6'3 200 with blondish-brown hair. He is muscular and reminded me a lot of Jack. We talked on the couch and he casually leaned over and kissed me. It felt natural so I just kissed him and we took off our clothes. We moved to the bedroom where he was more into pleasuring me than being pleasured. It felt amazing and it felt so much different than what I was used to. We had sex and then he left. Eric would text me and come over and we would do it. He was more of a guy friend than anything.

Fast forward to May 19th, I remember that Thursday because it was a day that I will never forget. I was beginning to go stir crazy and I felt like I needed to get out of the house. It had been about a month since Jack had been deployed and I had only talked to him once. I had been having trouble sleeping and I felt anxious and uneasy. I took a shower and Eric sent me a text and asked how I was doing. I wanted to tell him the truth but I replied I was fine. I just told him I wanted to go out somewhere to get out of the house. He said he was busy that night but offered to take me out to dinner at an Italian Restaurant the next night and I agreed. I didn't tell him how I was feeling because I thought I could handle it.

I went out for a drive just to clear my head and stopped at the grocery store. I bought some food and a large bottle of Smirnoff. I texted my friend Abby I used to hang out with and asked if she wanted to drink with me. She agreed and as I drove over to her apartment I kept thinking about that falling back into my old self for one night couldn't hurt. When I married Jack I became a military-wife and knew I was expected to adhere to a standard. She was the only girl I had ever been with and had feelings for. But as luck would have it, I got married and she was living with her boyfriend.

It was good to see Abby again and we hung out and drank together. She was still into smoking pot, I had quit about 6 months before I got married. She gave me a pill and I knew it was Molly and I took it. It wasn't long after that I started to feel the effects and we started to kiss and our clothes came off. We made out, fingered, and went down on each other on her couch. A few hours had passed without noticing, we were lying naked together smoking a joint together when she told me her boyfriend would be home soon. I didn't want to be there when her boyfriend came home because he and I didn't care for each other. We got dressed and said goodbye as I was going to head home. I felt buzzed but I didn't think I was drunk. I had made it down her stairs and out the front door just fine. I looked at myself in the mirror when I got in my Jeep. I was confident that I could drive home. In hindsight, I should've stayed there and tolerated her boyfriend to sleep it off.

I kept telling myself that I was fine as I started my Jeep and started driving home. I felt tired but I kept my eyes on the road. I can remember that my eyes were sensitive to the bright headlights and I started to feel woozy. I knew I was only about 15 miles from home and remember driving for a while but I must have blacked out or fallen asleep.

The next thing I remember is waking up in the Hospital Emergency Room with a Doctor shining a small flashlight in my eyes as the nurse poked me in the arm to start an IV. They asked me if I knew where I was and what my name was. I could see my clothes were bloody. The Doctor told me that I was in an Accident and that when I was able the police wanted to talk to me. At that moment, I freaked out and they asked if there was anyone they needed to call. They took my phone out of the plastic bag and handed me my phone. I pressed Eric and the nurse talked to him on the phone while the other nurse was cleaning and dressing wounds on my chest and head. I barely could move my fingers and toes and was in a lot of pain. Once the nurses got me stabilized I was moved to a different room. I must have dozed off but I woke up to see Eric and two police officers talking.

Eric and the officers walked over to the bed. He stood next to me and held my right hand. The officer introduced himself and when I asked what happened he told me that I had veered over the center line into oncoming traffic and hit another car that was driven by a woman that her child in the backseat. I started to cry as I could only imagine what I had done. They asked me what I could recall happening before the accident. I drew a blank and I couldn't remember anything except driving home. After having a brief conversation, the officer told me that I was being placed under arrest for Driving Under the Influence. He read me my rights then placed a handcuff on the left wrist and handcuffed the other side to the hospital bed. I sat in silence as the officers exited the room. Eric told me he would have a friend represent me and that we could talk about it more in the morning.

I just played back that entire night over and over in my head as was hoping it wasn't real and I would wake up. I asked how the woman and child were and Eric said he had heard they were in critical condition. I could not believe this was happening. I didn't feel like eating and they gave me meds to help with the pain and fell asleep.

The next morning, the doctors and nurses came in to check on me and Eric talked to them. I just answered their questions but I wasn't very talkative. A little while later, Eric's friend Anthony knocked on the door and Eric introduced me to him, I sat there quietly as they discussed what had happened. Anthony asked me if I wanted him to represent me and I agreed. He told me he would appear at my Arraignment Hearing with me on Tuesday. Anthony said he would do his best to ensure that I didn't have to go to jail (when I was released from the hospital) but it was up to the judge.

I ate lunch and I started to realize that this wasn't a nightmare it was reality. Anthony knocked at the door and he told Eric and I that I was being changed with Driving under the Influence because I had a .15 Blood Alcohol Content and there was MDMA and Marijana in my system at the time of the accident. He said that I was going to be released from the hospital later that day and would have to be booked at the County Jail. He would work with Anthony to get me bonded out as soon they could. I didn't even know what to say at that point so I just closed my eyes and prayed.

That evening, two police officers knocked on the door as they pushed in a wheelchair. They unlocked my handcuff then had me stand up and the female officer handed me orange scrubs to put on as I walked with her into the bathroom. She had me take off my hospital gown and my bra and underwear as she had me bend over to search me. Then I put on the scrubs and we walked back in the hospital room. Eric said he would take my property and the officer gave me orange Crocs to put on then handcuffed me with my hands in front as I sat down in the wheelchair.

They rolled me out of the room and down the hallway to the exit as we got outside they opened the door to the police SUV. I got inside and they put the seat belt on and closed the door. The feeling of being arrested is not something I ever want to experience ever again.

They took me to the County Jail as we pulled into the garage the door closed after us and they got out and opened my door. It felt like I wanted to cry and tremble in fear but I knew Eric would get me out. They booked me, took my mugshot and fingerprints and I had to sign some papers. I was sitting on a bench when they called my last name. They led me to a room to be strip-searched again. This time was more thorough than the last one. I had to squat and spread while they checked my orifices. I was given different scrubs they had me put on then handed me a small plastic cup, spork, and long foam-filled mattress, Then as we walked down the hallway the officer opened the cell door and I walked in and laid on my mattress. I broke down and cried and I couldn't believe that all this was happening.

The next morning, the door opened and I got my breakfast tray. I was allowed to eat amongst the other inmates and I noticed the phone. I called Eric as soon as I soon as I could and he told me they should have me bonded out that afternoon. He said Anthony was meeting with the prosecutor and once the judge accepted the terms of my release they would bond me out and I would be released from jail. I was relieved but still sitting on a wire bench in Country Jail.

A few hours later, the officer called my name and told me to get my things. I knew I was being released and was happy. I did as she asked gathered up my things and carried them down the hallway. Once we got to the desk she asked me a few questions and had me sign forms then gave me a plastic bag with my clothes in it. She told me to go change clothes put my scrubs in the laundry bin and stack up my things in the other room. I hurried to change and to put everything where she said. Then she led me to the door and I was released.

As soon as I walked out the door I saw Anthony, he told me that I was on a conditional release and that part of my plea deal (to avoid jail) was that I would be placed in an Adult Conservatorship where Eric would be my guardian would ensure that I got treatment for Alcohol and Drug Abuse as well as take me to meetings and I would be placed in his custody on-house arrest until my trial. I signed the papers he had and Eric signed as well.

Eric took me back home and I was so relieved that I wasn't in jail. I thanked him very much but he said don't thank me yet you have a lot of things to do before we go to trial. He told me that Anthony talked them out of having me wear an ankle monitor but he said I had to stay home. I couldn't drink alcohol or smoke marijuana. He came inside and looked through my fridge and the house he found a few bottles Jack had in the garage and put them in a box to take with him. I asked him if he knew if the lady and child hit were okay. He said he heard they had surgery yesterday but he said he would find out. I was worried that Jack would be angry with me once he found out that I wrecked the Jeep and went to jail. I wanted to talk to him but I didn't want to tell him. Eric said he had not called and it was up to me to tell him.

I took a shower as Eric made me something to eat. Once I dried off, I got dressed and we hung out in the living room. He told me that with the Conservatorship agreement, there were rules and he was in charge of me. I didn't get what he meant at first until he said until he asked if I had ever been dominated. I smiled innocently and said yes, Jack has dominated me a few times during sex.

He smiled and said well your training starts tomorrow.

CONTINUED IN PART II..

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