Hi hi, it's Fly~!
So my hiatus was only meant to last a few weeks while I got my hand healed up.

Then I wound up moving and getting a new job, hoping to prepare for the next chapter of my life. My old job was perfect for my creative process, and was low stress. I managed to have a string of days off to get things done and I could work on scripts while I was working, provided my performance didn't suffer.

Unfortunately, it didn't pay me nearly enough. They were also starting to do layoffs shortly after I left.

So I got a new job, hoping I could use my skills and advance onto a more lucrative career. The goal was to get back into writing when I was settled and had a routine established again.

It... Has been hell. I won't go into too much detail, but this job was not what I was prepared for. Very high stress, and while it does pay more than my old job, I'm currently commuting a lot more. (Went from working from home to an hour drive one way 5 times a week, so two hours of my day is spent in the car) And by the time I get home, I barely have the energy to take care of myself and my dog. I've been sleeping a lot more lately and just feel... Depressed and burnt out.

"But Fly, why don't you go to therapy?"

Well, I can't take a day off at the moment because I'm still in the probation period. Not to mention therapy is very expensive and most professionals around here have waiting lists that are months long to get a spot.

And we're so short staffed right now that one person missing literally makes the whole day go tea over kettle. And it's created a cycle of "We're short staffed so we can't train. Untrained workers make the people we serve mad. Mad people cause stress. Stressed workers look for new jobs, leaving us short-staffed." Repeat ad nauseum.

I've been searching elsewhere for employment, no luck just yet.

So here I am a few months later. I've been meaning to get back into writing, I really have. But I'll find myself staring at the screen, my words looking like a jumbled mess, too paralyzed to write more because I'm worried that what I'm creating isn't mine anymore.

It doesn't feel like the stuff I used to make. And I don't want to try and churn out a mediocre project, especially for some of the things I've been working on. I even had someone recently contact me to try and write a sequel for one of my works. While I am sure they didn't mean anything malicious by it...

It really hurt. It made me feel like I wasn't doing enough. I wasn't fast or eager enough.

Something I used to love can't bring me joy anymore.

I don't want to quit. I love the characters too much and do enjoy what I do, I just have to get the spark back.

Anyway, sorry this has been a rambly mess, but I felt that you all should know what's been going on my side of things.

I hope I can one day come back to entertain.