As I lay here and ponder the past, present and future. I find myself happy yet sad at life, both personal and societal. The internet helps with keeping the distraction that at the end of the day, I really don’t matter to random people. Thoughtless banter, small talk remarks, the occasional rant or joke. It’s all a distraction that at the end of the day. Who cares about you. Are you anyone’s last thought. Is anyone thinking about you right now that actually truly cares about you. Are you just trying to lie to yourself that you are important. What distracts you? What do you truly care about? Is what you are doing truly worth it or just a distraction. How is what you are doing beneficial to your happiness and peace of mind? What are you giving up in order to achieve what you think is good. As I lay here, no one is on my mind just as I’m not on anyone’s mind. It’s deep thought and yes im alright. I just think deeply and have more questions than answers too.