it feels so heavy that I wish to end things

suffering stops

mind bombarded of negatives

can't sleep

cacophony fills my entirety

is this my reality

wednesday musings cause everything feels so bleak but i got you people who are there to support me and love me... having bipolar is no joke. sometimes i wanna conquer the world. sometimes i just wanna disappear and leave things as they should be...so thankful for voice acting... takes the stress away, being someone else even just for a while... my lifeline

ps don't report this to Reddit that I'm seeking help hehe I'm taking my meds it's just that things are rocky recently and there's a lot of bills that I need to pay AAAAAH how I wish I will win in the lottery lol school starts again (thesis I hate you lol)

I may be a hypocrite or this is cognitive dissonance (cause I tend to forget), please take care of yourself. In all ways, always. We can't pour from an empty cup.

If you haven't heard this for a while or no one has told you, you're not alone. I see you and I'm proud of you for winning all the battles (silent or not) that you've fought and still fighting. Look back and realize that you've come far already, why stop? Keep on keeping, good things are going to happen. Trust the process. You are loved. You are important. You are worth it. You are more than enough.

all the best and with gratitude,

malaya ✨