I mean I know they said before that they were open to the idea of developing feelings, but I found them posting about wanting another FWB and wanting to be fucked. The idea of them actually with other people makes me absolutely sick and I know we're trying to develop our friendship more, but I'm genuinely afraid that my feelings are going to get thrown away and trampled on again and I'm just going to be rejected and another person is going to be with him and I just really think this can be something special.

I keep jumping to conclusions when I should just have some faith and trust, and Idk maybe I'm clinging onto hope that isn't there when they said that they don't see me that way right now as things stand, but said "I'm not saying I couldn't imagine ever having that level of intimacy with you".

I really like them and I don't want to approach this friendship with other intentions, I really truly want to get to know them and I want to be in their corner. My mind just sometimes wanders to the "what if", what if they wind up with someone else? What if they start hooking up with others? I don't think I could handle learning about that.