Here is another section of the 2,400 plus words thing that I wrote. Today's been a bad day for me, remembering some unpleasant memories. Rereading this really resonated with me, I was desperate and stupid, a part of me is really glad even at that moment, I fought and didn't lose hope.

Anyway, I promise I'll be back with the usual kinky stuff soon.

For today, let me have this...

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My dream is not to have to daydream anymore. Is to wake up from the nightmare that I am in right now and wake up with you beside me. I am honestly so close to ending my life, and if that is the only way I'll find you then I'll do it. Maybe this nightmare, that is my life, will finally end with my death. I don't want to keep on waking up in this nightmare. I don't want to die but I don't think I can last any longer without you. Every night before I sleep all I pray for is you to shake me to wake up because you've been waiting for me. So yes, in layman's terms, I want you to save me. I'm so tired love... I'm so fucking tired. I don't know what to do anymore. Fuck, I'm desperate enough to fucking send this to the internet.