Not something I’ve ever told my friends or family - only strangers on Reddit from time to time - but back when I was in college there was a really brief period of time when my parents and I had a falling out and I was on my own financially. During this time I did a little modeling, but ended up working for an escort (discreetly, not like on the street or anything lol) to pay for tuition and cost of living. I grew up in a culturally conservative east asian family and parts of my social circle are as well. I ended up never telling anyone and to keep it a secret I didn’t do it for very long. Still, thinking back it was really hot experience. Before this, I was relatively inexperienced sexually, but suddenly I found myself being used like a piece of meat by a bunch of random businessmen, some super hot and some way below my league, unapologetically shoving as much of their as they could inside of me. At first I wasn’t comfortable because they were so sexually assertive and I had only been with two boyfriends before..but over time as the butterflies went away I started to really look forward the it. I admit that I enjoyed being fetishized and lusted after by a bunch of hung, wealthy strangers. It was kind of hot knowing I was fulfilling a fantasy for them, especially the white guys. I was the youngest girl available, so there was always a long waitlist to try to see me, which honestly made me feel really good about myself some reason. Then when the time came, I loved the look on their faces when they saw me for the first time. They always commented on how pretty I looked and how I’d be the last person they’d expect to be able to have sex with, which made me want to submit to them even more. I got so turned on how they went from gentlemen mode to roughly dominating me in the blink of an eye. Now all I can think about is being gang raped and being free use.