You know, I have been down this road so many times, different faces and different places. I am happy alone. I am happy being single. It's not even about that. I once had a best friend. Someone I made the mistake of dating. Fast Forward to now. Ironically in the end you didn't deserve my love and my feelings but yet I gave and I gave. I don't know if this is because my best friend died, not the guy I am talking about but a girl I knew since I was 19. I only wanted to be his friend but he could never be my friend and I deserve better but yet I just wish he could be but I am just sad right now. I never thought I would cry thinking about this person but funny how the mind works or maybe it's just my mind. Either way I miss him but he's a ghost metaphorically speaking. For whatever reason today it all just hit me and I miss someone who may have never been who I believed he was. I loved you more than you will ever know and more than you will ever find in this life. Thanks FL from Quebec.