Such is life... I am going to try to type this without being upset. Do I have the right to be sad when it's at least half my fault that this is the situation or outcome? I think so. Sometimes friendships, relationships or things in between do not work out. I might have taken some time to go back over things to see where, when, how or why things started to go off the rails but what does that really solve? Not much when it is looking more and more like those bridges are burnt, the road is out and the ship has sailed.

I can honestly say I never said cruel or mean words to you, like I once did with someone else. I might have hurt your feelings but I do not believe I ever did it on purpose. Did we ever argue? Yeah, we did. I think that is normal but you know I am not normal. I am not always going to be this well packaged person who handles everything just perfectly. I understand being the opposite of that is not ideal either. I actually did not think this is where things would end up. I mean did I think it would go past where it did? Nope, not at all but I did not foresee the end.

I fucked up and I can not go back and undo anything. I can't fix the past ever, once its done it's done. I do not hate you, I do not resent you and as times goes by everyone will see that I have nothing bad to say about you besides personal things are well personal, however I can repeat those in my own head. I guess I pushed too far and well now you are gone. I might think it's unfair but we are two people who want two totally different things however you were fun, I enjoyed the time and I do not have many regrets and now I start to cry so that means it's time to stop. Good luck and thank you, J.