With two weeks behind me and time a part, I can actually write an unbiased opinion about the person who was once my best friend and more. I have known you for the last three years and I think I have gotten to know you rather well. You may think I am writing this out of revenge, to trash you, or to have some tell all read. None of those are the case. I could hammer away at all your insecurities and less desirable traits or lack of goals but that is not what a friend would do. I could fill entire pages and books about all the cruel, twisted and outright narcissistic traits you have. I could go into personally private things about you, myself or things that may or may not have happened. Could I go on and on about how you made me feel like I was nothing, how you got me to love a certain word during a certain time, or how I turned myself inside out, upside down and truly lost who I was trying to love you? However after sitting with myself for a few weeks, the friend within me is prevailing. I am going to treat you with grace and kindness something I have not shown in a long time. Does it hurt that I have finally lost my best friend? Of course it does. Does it hurt to know that a big part of the last three years of my life is gone? You bet your ass it does hurt. Does it bother me to know that I, myself, played a part into why you are gone? Oh yeah it does. Do I think you will ever be my friend again? No, not really. Life is never really fair and things are always changing, like the different seasons the Earth cycles through. I believe the person I owe the biggest apology to is myself, Sam I am sorry for letting you lose yourself trying to love someone who does not love their own self. Someone who can't admit to themselves about n e thing in life. So yeah I apologize to myself and I hope in time that life turns out good for ya. I will always be kind and polite to you even if you decide to be a jerk to me. So yeah I feel better getting this out..... Lastly I had to get this out because once I click post, I will be going on my first official date with someone and this closes the chapter on you, my former friend. So be good bud e and take care of yourself. I am showing unconditional love as the person who was once your best friend. Good Luck. PS: I got a new job already... Did you? : )