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One - Choice of work

How fucking dumb do I have to be to choose to walk into a work site where I am as likely to get stabbed or pricked by a dirty needle as some one at McDonalds is to get a geese burn..

You would think shit man, you must get paid fairly well for doing the cops job, the paramedics job, a shtinks job, the janitors job, the secretary's job, a security guards job, being the in house tec support.. an put up with these high risk situations leading to a high stress an life shortening career path... Must make great cash right...

remember that burder kid.. yeah he/she might actully make more then I fucking do.. so again I ask how fucking stupid must I be that I choose to walk into this shit every day.. I have pulled bodys out of the dumpster, I have heald guys brains in there head after there collecter got lets say upset.. What has to be so fucked in my head that this is a better fit then standing an flipping a mother fucking burger...

Two - Women

this is not the first but I am damn sure it will be the last time a woman fucks me over like this.. the next time I will go to jail I will do all the things they claim I did an finally be this evil human they keep making me out to be..

17 GF sets me up has be jumpped by 8 kids me an a buddy kick the shit out of them.. 2 hours later they show back up with bats I am drunk as fuck an get beat half to death.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY

18 Live out of town so come home on holladays well I was getting my shit together.. every time I would come back stupid bitch would turn out had been fucking half the small town thinking no one would fucking know.. I end up getting tossed out the first time I take another chick on a ride on my bike at the time cuz I wrecked it half drunk thinking a scate park was a smart place to ride..

25 cick lets me move in, book worm, church goer, what could go wrong... oh how about getting knocked up in a month turn out to be Bipolar an BPD with OCD and cronic depression an scoliosis so after the kids she could hardly get out of bed.. I take care of this chick get her the help when she needs it, stop her from killing her self on seveal ocations.. 1 week before xmass she thorws me out with no money nothing.. (I did manage to get a place an only wander for 2 days)

I stay around an help this chick out she is the mother of my kids after all.. pay her debets make sure my kids preschool is paid for but them all sorts of fancy shit well im doing some "Extra" work.. the 31s of last mont 2 days after we where in bed together she tells me shes fucking random dudes has some guy throw me ut of her place in front of my kid rip me off of 500.00

I wait 3 weeks thinking thingas would cool off call her to try an see my kids like a normal human would do.. offer to give her things I knew she cared deeply about..

Stupid bitch called the cops saying I was threatening her.. Like what in the living fuck...

3 - Sick of being alone

after every thing you would assume I would hate every one an think the world is full of peaces of shit.. well you would be correct how ever I have been alone for so many fucking years in my life I can not stand it.. I am not a nice person on my own.. The strongest and most powerful men have a strong woman beside them.. I am not looking to fuck every thing I am not looking to screw around.. I am looking for a woman who when I tell my darkest shit to she takes that shit to the grave because she is my best fucking friend.. You see ever where i want friedn I want I want I want.. GUESS what you not going to find it on the fucking internet.. Go do shit go live life... run into people get a fucking hobby in a goup if you dnt click move on, eventully some one is going to be willing to endure your sutpid ass..

Yeah real fucking simple before the world went to shit an every one is pointing at every one an no one wants to be real out of fear of who they are telling an what damage it will do to there career or home life or family ect.. You realize if we all quit trying to kill each other an showed some mutual respect for each others choices there would be no fucking problem.. dont go breath on people like a dick head if your sick stay the fuck home an away from elders, that should be a given anyways.. ware a mask if you in an especially venerable situation or health risk, if people wanna play guini pig for a human trial fine if people want to do some resarch an wair fine it is not going to kill the god damn world .. Yes some people have died it is tragic to the familys who have suffered.. dose it effect me no dose it effet you no.. so quit acting like some one is pissing on your pillow.. yes ppeople will die... stupid mother fuckers who are not willing to use some caution an a lot of common sense.. I know a rare thing now a days,, how many more things does the newss have to spit out tell people figure out thats whats turning us on us.. black vs white.. I am white I do not hate black folks I would support any man woman or child who wanted to have a beter life then they where "told they could have" as much love an support as I am capable same goes for most white folks.. we are not majorityy nazes or skin heads we are humans just like you who want peace an prosparity for our communitys just like you.. I live in the getto I have gun fights out my window every other night.. I take care of junkies white brown black yellow it dont matter they need help .. you going to tell me that privlage? Stupid bitch had me tossed in jail n suspition of a fucking threat that white privlage? yeha there are some real goofy cops out there, they would rob kill what ever cuz some where they lost the honnor they once had... the few not the many.. if we wanna go for what the news tells us are all the folks not white(use that so I dont offend any one by calling them a culture or race that may offend or trigger) we are told yall gun packing bandi wairing dope smoking busted broke ass loosers.. is that all of you? fuck no your moomas weather you got your daddy or hes a peace of shit like mine she try to do whats best for you and show you a better way.. maybe you get a shit roll an it dont work out so simple I get that.. but at some point those tho have the hard road need to stop bitching about how bad it is get off there ass an chanjge that shit.. lifes hard already why not make it that much harder for a better one?

son of a bitch.. We all got along an quit listen to people tell us all reason we should hate each other an ask each other reason we should love each other how we can help each otrher.. the control would break so fast it would blow your mind. .

4 Final - Love that can not be broken as much as you wish it would

You may have notice I left out a few years sure could have been single years but no.. I have known this woman now for 14 years.. we talked non stop for 4 years over the phone before we met IRL. from the moment I looked into her eyes I knew she would be my wife.. an things where as smooth as one could ever hope.. we where young she was new to the world she had my first kids young.. she had so much life to live.. I had already done more then most could in 3 life times I was ready to settle down.. she had done school well an grew up healthy an now wanted to break lose.. this started to break things down I did not want to force her to stay an I knew the end would come.. My mom dies of brain cancer a year after my kids are bron.. an a week later she leaves.. I go on a self destructive rampage for the next year or so intell I finally meet the psyco a few weeks into getting my shit togeher.. as said aboive that ended a while ago offically but in fact 30 days ago for me.. well this chick that bailed for her safety an that of our kids saves me from jumpping off a roof. starts to send mixed signals.. i love you i dont know I may never love you lets go on holladay but i wont see you for 3 week before hand.. this chick is driving my smashed spirit into the dirt but no matter what she dose I just cant even think about any one else.. she knows it an says she is okay with it so im not stalking her or naything.. I sent her a photo of our weddign rings an she says thats fine but yesterday refuses to talk to me cuz the night before i text her 9 times well she was at work.. last night I sent her alost 1000 an that was fine?

Just figure it the fuck out or lets dive in an find out the fucking hard way cuz I am putting ymy shit back togeher an its kinda hard when you keep kicking the table legs off well the glue is drying..

I wish I could just say Cya fuck off..

no ide rather baby sit her exes an hers new baby girl to support her.. if it where any one else ide well nvm no need to get fowel at the end..

We are going camping friday with the three kids.. I am hoping after a bottle of wine an her coolers not nearly enough to get this ex coke head in any sort of disfunction we can relax an actully talk an get past these fucking walls of fear she has up an figure out how the fuck to quit acting like teens we are 30 an 26 for fuck sakes..

Well thanks for letting me get parts of all those out..

If any one is offended I did my best I dont want to hear about it report it to the mods an let them deal with it dont be a hero an start a flame war cuz I just dont care enough about any of you for it to be worth your time..

If the mods find any thing offensive or to much let me know I am more then willing to eddit desriptions or terms but I think I mannaged to avoid ainy negative sterio types an keep away from any medical info so as not to be accused of mis info.. all I ask is let send a 2 second message im a reasonble fuckin dude im happy to work with ya

i you have legitamit concerns speak up maybe some one can help..

if you have comments fine if I dont like it I will be a dick.. It is no longer my fault you have been warned..

I think thats about all I would need to leave here in post so thank you folks again...