My emotions have been a hurricane these two months. It has really been turning around my single life. I want a girlfriend, but I'm shy when it comes to stuff like this in person. I'm the 'Big Brother' of my relationships with my friends, a crazy, weird 'Big Brother'. My self-esteem issues don't help with confidence either, so asking a girl out is hard for me, plus I don't think girls want to date me so why even try? I've come to a point where I'm just not gonna try to get a girlfriend. So what if you don't get anything if you don't get it yourself; I'll be content living alone for the rest of my life. Well, I might not be content, but I'll either live with it, hating myself for the rest of my life, or kill myself.