I know this is unfortunate but I want to die and thinking of doing it Monday, just wanted to share with anyone, so here I go

My name is Chris sloggett and I'm 25 from Oregon stayton to be exact. I met this wonderful woman named Taylor and she was definitely out of my league, but she took a risk got know completely younger stranger. But I'm glad she did . So picked me up from my neighbors house, because I was in the process of moving out of my ex's house and thought that be a no or awkward thing, but eventually more blossoms and I found myself deeply devoted to this woman but my ex made my life difficult and this woman had trauma and round this time my mother wa going to be homeless and I had her rent room , but when ever I was gone, my mom would slander and gossip about me and how me being gone remind her of my father and how he is slime ball . Her adopted daughter also lives there , quite girl, but gossip lot type, in everyone business even though she is only 16 not all things she needs to know about. Anyways not so soon after my love she dump me asking for space now she erased herself from my life and I'm homeless, and I'm so heartbroken, I have no support group and my family doesn't seem care bc told my mom and brother and neither cared only to call once . I have no friends and I got job but to no avail nothing I do is enjoyable everything, everyday I think of her and what my life be like if I was happy . Even porn I think of her and start to cry . Can't even get hard really and I feel like sick and my life has no meaning, ppl can't just flip a switch. She tells me no point in trying be together she wishes things could be different but continues to crush out my soul . And my life is very unenjoyable to where I thought about it for months now think I'm going to do it haven't picked how but I just wanted to let someone know