Last night was bad. Drove to Phx, paid for a room, dude wasn't texting back, so I left. Then he texts me when I'm half way home. I thought "now, I made the 2.5 hr drive, took time from work, AND paid for the room? Why did I do that?" He never offered to cover the room. So lesson there. Then I was going to meet with another guy tonight. Just a coffee but since I was driving down, I thought I meet him last night. He gives me his address. I tell him exactly when I'll be there. I am there, to the minute. Only a few of the house lights are lighting up addresses. I'm not about to get out and go up to each house to read addresses. I'm texting him. "Hey, I'm here. Which house is yours, Hey, I feel sus out here sitting in my car. Hey, I'm going to leave, this is weird." Q5 min later he's like "hey come back" I'm like "umm nope" You have one shot with me, esp if I'm making all the effort. That's it. Annnnd he got blocked. So tired of the stupidity in this state. Don't want to do ld but there has to be a decent transplant that's knows how to treat a woman right. Military men are so polite and helpful. Cops and MDs have a high emotional intelligence. I just have a thing for uniforms and that training. I love Alpha men but I'm thinking a sub man will treat me better? This is all stupid. It can't be this difficult. It just can't be.