I know this is not a good idea.

I know you hate me, and have probably felt negatively about me for a long while.

I want nothing from you, I just hope you’re happy living your best life. (Yes, I would love to know you’re happy, but I don’t deserve to know.)

I wish I could let you go, I can’t I was foolish and fell for you. You were methodical and knew what you were doing. I should have realized it when you got mad at me for going with me ex-SO to a movie while you went to concerts with yours. Yes, I was slow to act, I had kids to think about (and they both have considerable issues I am trying to sort through, easier to manage like this than with me ex) and while you said that we could work through it together, that was never in the cards. Every time I tried to get close you pushed me away. Even then I still fell for you, you’re parting words to me motivated me, they didn’t cut me. I may be unhappy alone, but I am still happier than I was. I can focus on my kids which are really what matter, and it our night together was a wonderful night (and I was far from 100% which sucks because you didn’t get the best of me).

Thank you for stopping in my life, I wish I made a small impression on you (it was probably more a depression). I am such a different person now and I can’t thank you enough for your contribution. I think about you a lot, because no one ever treated me like you and I’m not sure anyone ever will. Stay awesome, have an amazing life and in the unlikely event we ever cross paths again I will welcome you with a smile.