Been together 25 years…maybe 20 of those years I pushed the hotwife lifestyle on her…probably the last 10 of those were pretty sexless and focusing on the kids. During that 10 the cuck porn was pretty relentless. Drove me deeper into wanting the humiliation side of things.

Fast forward to last year in march her sex drive kicked in and realized 40 was coming up really soon, if she was going to try out hotwifing it was now or never.

We tried it very stag/vixen style but truthfully it wasn’t enough, I wanted to be involved with more of the humiliation aspect but it wasn’t offered up.

It turned even more sideways when it headed towards BDSM with her first bull. I was led to believe that I was going to involved and participate via helping restrain her or cleanup duties along with a little humiliation. It never happened and I was completely ignored.

A few sessions in her bull paddled her to the point of severe bruising which I had trouble viewing at the time. I was unaware of what I was going to witness and it got me a little concerned. I also made clear that I wouldn’t want to see breath play, which he also demonstrated in front of me. (Both are on the table today as we’ve spoken about them and i understand a little more of why it fits into the kink.)

We broke ties with him after that. At the time I didn’t know then why I reacted to the scene like I did. I now know I wasn’t allowed into the kind of headspace that would have made something like this bearable.

We haven’t tried anything involving me since. At most, she’s played solo with guys and taken videos.

We’ve tried swinging and it’s been fun. Ive played plenty on my own with other women and she’s experienced her own poly dating where it’s nothing mutual and focuses only on her enjoyment.

I’m not your typical cuck. I identify straight and have zero attraction to men. I have never once done anything with another guy in my life. I have no problem satisfying a woman and don’t necessarily have a tiny cock.

The forced bi thing is the most recent addition to the role play in which my wife teases me. It’s confusing but erotic when she’s telling me what she or a bull might force me to do for their pleasure. I’m learning not to question why it gets me off because it certainly decreases the fun of the kink when I analyze it too much. We see it as a power exchange or power imbalance and in this dynamic it seems really hot to both of us.

I’ve always been the more dominant one. Over the years I think mostly due to the porn I’ve had some pretty submissive desires I think due to the fact that I’d be in the cuck role if fantasy were reality…an acceptance of my role was inevitable.

I’m very much aware that I’m clearly a switch. I give a lot of pleasure through dominance, but have a hard time getting off being dominant. I also know I can give a lot of pleasure being submissive but it’s the only way I can physically get my rocks off.

Soft limits: Voyeuristic where the cuck is only allowed to watch or hold legs and hair. Verbal humiliation. Kissing my wife in between sucking the bulls cock. Cuckold 69/fucklicking. Cleaning her up. Denial of my orgasm. Restrained and forced to watch Taking the bulls cock out. Guiding it in her mouth. Guiding it in her pussy. Cleaning him up (not sure how far I’m willing to go in the moment)

Hard limits: Me being intimate or touched.