2018-19-2020 I was experimenting with sarms prohormones and orals no pcts 2020 I started my first cycle in Feb of 500mg test per week for 16 weeks I loved it. Then prepped for 16 weeks with masteron for 12 weeks then show got canceled because of covid. Stayed on test 250 for a month or so. Then prepped for another 16 weeks took 500 270npp test and 210 masteron prop for 16 weeks dropped the npp used tren for 4 weeks with Clen 50mg winstrol tablets and halotestin last 2 weeks. Then I stopped for 3-4 weeks. Then I started again test and masteron and npp 300test/210npp/210 masteron for a couple of weeks.. then only test for couple of months 5 months or so. Then from there took 1 month off and started test and npp again for a prep but stopped the prep.. I got off injectables for about 2 months here and I was taking Tbol these 2 months 50mg a a day I felt good. Then after that I did another stupid cycle. Test 500, anavar 50mg PREWORKOUT and used Tren ace now because I was injecting it with an insulin needle into my delt and it made it more comfortable for me because of the non pip. I went like this for another prep. Test400/mast210/clen80mcg for about 8 weeks then I stopped. After 3 years of only small windows of breaks 2-3 weeks breaks here and there between blasts n crusies. I was dumb and young experimenting. I completely came off 15 months ago cold turkey no pct nothing at all. I had an intervention that probably saved my life. Although I swore I wouldn’t use them again as I feel better now. But the past year I won’t lie even till now I don’t feel any motivation at all, I don’t want to chase bodybuilding anymore I want to work on my business. I’m not as motivated as I used to be this whole year that passed feels like shit I don’t think my levels have recovered. As much as I hate jabbing and I will do bloodwork for sure but I’d most likely need trt no?