I had originally typed out a huge, long string of thoughts right here, and then I accidentally deleted it all somehow.

Sigh. Blaaaaaah. Lots of thiiiiings. Lots of things.

Okay anyways. Guess it all just boils down to - I’m a happy girl. I’m happy with you in my life. I’m happy that the way you left forced me to hit a bottom in my life that I had never been before. A place that made me see the worst - I never want to be there again. A place that made me value what I am, who I am, and everything that I have right here. Everything that I have to offer, and everything that you offer me. A place of growth and evolution. A place of being - authentically me. A place of pure gratitude and worship. A place of lust filled, fiery desire and a place of calm, blissful peace.

I love the impact having you in my life has, as I truly am a better me when you’re here. You just make me better and make me want better. I’m sorry to have ever ruined it that time you left.. I’m truly sorry. I am even more grateful for you today than I was then, than I was yesterday, and I will be even more grateful tomorrow.

You feed me in ways no one else can. Our bodies were made for each other. This level of depth and connection feels cosmic at times.

fucking cosmic 🌑✨