So, I've been hypersexual my whole life, and it has given me a wide variety of experiences that have moulded my sexuality. My friends, hookups, long-term partners, and those I surround myself with have all played their part in reinforcing it.

Through my experiences, I learned early on that giving pleasure to my partners got me off so much and changed how I saw sex and pleasure. Over time, that evolved into wanting to push into more sexual exploration with them to increase their pleasure and my own. I've done it all, sharing, group sex, threesomes, cucking, hotwifing, poly, going deep into kinks and fetishes all to chase that high, to see how good they are. It put me in a position to be dominant and in control, to want to push my partners deep into submission, chasing pleasure, testing limits, and seeing how far they will let it go.

As that exploration advanced, I was able to see how much pleasure a woman could get, their inhibitions eroding, and how desperate and slutty they could be within the right setting. It only exasperated everything; it became the focus of all my sexual relationships. It was all about pushing into sexual exploration to chase that pleasure and euphoria, feeding into their submission. Watching how much they loved it, wanted to explore it, wanted to push for more, and just how addictive and corrupting it could be.

I started getting jealous, envious, and empathetic. Now when I see a girl losing herself in pleasure, being slutty, loving being sexual, and owning their body and sexuality, it starts to affect me. I want to be them, feel what they feel, look how they look, act how they act, and lose myself to the pleasure and submission that I've given so many others. My relationships and my hookups have started to reinforce it even more; when I take control of my partners, and dominate them, I'm doing to them what I want to be done to me.

Porn has also started to play a big part; I love edging, gooning, getting high, and just losing hours to it all in a haze. This kind of play is corrupting and has made me want to explore this so much more, made me ache for it, and become addicted to the idea of it. Seeing those women in porn, climaxing nonstop, worship huge cock, get fucked so good, it drives me crazy. Now my porn is all about it, seeing that passion, that submission, that desperation and lust.

I'm stuck in this weird place where my real life and my sexual experiences demand the dominant side, the one to be in control, with no deviation. It is like a heteronomitve black hole where I can only explore how I feel and what I want online, in private, so I want to explore it here. With the right person, there are no limits on how far I can explore this. I want to understand, sink into, and give in to it. I like the idea of corruption, feminization, addiction, manipulation, loss of control, and loss of choices, but slowly, to enjoy the process.

It's hard for me to fully express it yet because I don't know what it looks like here, chatting, online, etc. I'm also open to suggestions or just talking it out. Message me any time.