rn im in bed about to go to sleep and ive found myself recently just on reddit looking for audios and it is great!! sometimes i fall asleep part way through so that sucks but i think thats my own fault lol

anyway though my complaint is i wanna like go and be and do this sorts of stuff but it seems like recently the whole existence of this part of my life seems to just disappear during the daytime and i just never think about it. and that means i get nothing done for it!! but anyway though it may also be the reason i make these posts every so often. like i feel connected (and i suppose to you as in my audience but i was thinking simply the audio listening and performing experience) but i feel as if my connection isnt properly expressed from my end so i call out into the void here so to hope for a response that validates my feelings of connectedness. just a possibility, i think, and it is very blunt the way i put it and i dont want to suggest that any of you are "nothing more than validators for my feeling of connectedness" or anything like that because that is ludicrous and i can tell from a distant emotionless evaluation of the situation i think i feel connected because of the connected feel one feels when immersed in a good audio whereas i havent actually been connected bc i havent been posting comments or audios or anything of the sort.

uh anyway hope you are all doing good and also amazing uh...

think tonight might be one of those where i fall asleep again lmao

uh this is technically an asshole plug (and not like something to plug the asshole but a plug done in the fashion of an asshole) but anyway join my discrod if you want to talk/chat/help motivate me and remeber that i can get hot and sexy and subby on the mic and have a lot of fun doing it (too lazy and tired to find link sorry folks might put it in later)

ok riff out bweedlybweedlybweeeeeeee (thats the sound of a guitar riff lol)