just wanted people to know that i have yet to die. i will also probably be making attempts to avoid dying in the future.

anyway idk i mean i know it's different to have a fanbase vs a group of friends but im always open for friendship (even if i take way too long to respond sorry about that lol) but i guess i wanted to open up about myself some more.

uh so as has been stated before i have a gf now and i mean thats a good thing (shes great btw) but also it does make me feel like im losing even more touch with this than i was earlier. like i love sending her audios and reacting to hers but it does sort of take time out of the possible time i could be taking to make audios for more people (you people) and though that doesnt really distress me too much (like i am sort of a big fan of making sure my relationship with my gf is top priority, romantic/sexual wise) it still makes me feel a bit bad for you guys.

that of course along with the good old pal executive dysfunction (really the most evil contributor) and then other responsibilities like school and stuff sorta kinda just get in the way of audio making and all that. and also like i think it was my special interest for a while and now it's not (that shit cycles) so my free time is consumed more by like minecraft and melee and reading scps and whatnot (as another example of the cyclical nature it stopped being littlebigplanet which i referenced before)

anyway also i guess in a retrospective i did sort of start this because of romantic loneliness and so now one can consider all of everything ive done here to be a means to an end, the end being finding a romantic partner. which i did. so like even if i would like things to be less quiet around here i can also understand a deeper reason as to why i dont seem to be bothered nearly as much by it as before. still feel bad of course, but also like idk it seems i just have even less drive towards working on audios (or even listening) than i had in the summer.

shit. well im not entirely sure what else to say. hope you all are doing fine. im just cruising along as usual. oh also rip flash. im a big homestar runner fan (among other things like flash games and homestuck) and up and removing huge swathes of internet history like that just really puts a bad taste in my mouth. could go on a big rant about it but ill save it unless it comes up in some large capacity in the near future. go and play nitrome games while you still can, everyone. highlight of my childhood, at least.