feels like im losing ground bc i havent been asking my math questions and i havent been doing my covers but i mean it doesnt really matter bc my participation there isnt really something that needs to define me and im okay with that i think i put too much stock into it anyway and thats why it dragged me down so much

what i need to really get down to is getting hot and heavy with my mic bc i have a gf now and you might think "yo but now you have a gf dont you think you might want to spend your sexual attention on her?" and i was thinking "yeah absolutely" but then also came to mind 1 the fact that shes super busy all the time and 2 that she liked my audios in the first place (and 3 she teases me all the damn time and then i get all flustered and then idk what to do bc shes not in a position to talk with me via voice chat and stuff most of the time and then i feel bad because she loves the noises that i make and i instinctively hold them in a bit more because theres nobody to hear them but idk maybe i could get into getting some release and also that way she could hear them too idk)

okay tired as fuck dont know why i always do these when im already 2 hours past my bedtime and 20mg of melatonin gummy overboard

uh i guess send me a message if you want to know things idk i just never ever get tired of that good old dopamine rush of having a new blip blop

okay and then other than that finally uh ok cya goodbye

(im sleeping now)