i wanna make an audio lmao i wanna feel like the subby little bitch that i am and i want to be punished and/or rewarded for being the subby little bitch that i am but because my internal motivation system is a standard particularly unhot actual little bitch it feels like so much god damn effort. and ill probably talk about executive dysfunction until the cows come home but bro that shit is what i gotta deal with! i do honestly feel bad for you folks bc i dont like breaking promises or being late but i mean what can you do. brain literally does not get enough chemical to get body to go into motion towards goals and it sucks cock and balls. so like i put out what i can put out to make me feel active and help me feel better about how little i end up being able to do. i mean i can put out more stuff but idk if it can be audio because thats stuff i gotta edit but like just my not-having-done-anything is a annoying ass reminder of how shitty i am at doing things and getting things done and so complaining about it just is the first thing that comes to mind. shit!

(and i mean thats just on the audio standpoint folks dont even get me started on school lmao i missed a whole exam off of this bullshit)