my frustrations are that i still haven't done anything here for years and that i'm (still) psychologically disadvantaged towards getting anything done. i feel kind of like i have let you all down a bit. maybe more than a bit. it is often that i envision typing something down here and then rethinking because i want to have news of upcoming audios when i post or something but i never do. this time i just felt the urge. i guess at least a year is a long enough time anyway.

the communication is that i am still alive, i guess? i'm sure it is nice to hear but in all reality i wouldn't blame anyone if they simply didn't care about it given it has no immediate bearing on how much content is on the horizon beyond the bleak forecast of "it's possible". (thought i guess it is far less bleak than "it's not possible" so idk lol)

oh also at some point slave training got past 5000 listens. that was pretty cool. i think right now it is sitting at 5433 or so? genuine thanks, everyone. i do hope you folks are enjoying it. wish i could promise more like it in good faith.

uh besides that i guess all i have to say is join my discord if you want to help motivate my ass. thanks lol