Wow

I never wanted to let you go...

'I never wanted to let us go, to let you go. Do you think I wanted to have to pull, scratch, and claw myself away from you and put myself through this agony? You have no idea the stress and pain I've been under because all I ever wanted to do was love you and for you to love me, but you couldn't pull your end of the stick. I fought for us. I prayed for us. I fought more. I sacrificed, I gave, I would lose myself to gain you. I did my part. I gave every inch of myself to and for you. I breathed for you. My life was you. Despite what anyone thinks or says about that, it's the truth. You don't see those nights where I picked the phone up, wrote you a message, read it, and erased it all in disappointment because I know how this will end. You don't see those moments where something happens that makes me laugh so hard, and I automatically look to find you to tell you. You don't see the nights where I have to cry myself to sleep because the pain won't end. I want to go back to you, I want to contact you, I want to go back to who we were, But I can't. I can't do that because as much as I wanted this, and us, you've proven that you don't feel the same way. You never had that same fight for us, that same drive to make us work, and to keep me the way I did for you. I never wanted to let you go, but you gave me no other option."