I hate it so much. I just have to get this off of my chest. I hate living this way, each night is such a struggle to fall asleep. Then I wake up around 6am like clockwork and struggle once again to fall back asleep. I'm very lucky if in-between those, I don't wake up as well. Last night, my heart rate dropped to 42BPM. That concerned me, the lowest I've seen it drop was around 62-58BPM. I looked it up, says it's bradycardia and that it's normal. Not for me it isn't. Maybe it's because I've been so depressed lately. I have no motivation for anything. I cried this morning. I get too much REM sleep, and the worst part is, I don't remember any of my dreams. I don't get enough deep sleep. Most of it is light sleep or REM. I likely have a sleeping disorder of some sort, possibly sleep apnea and insomnia. Trazadone barely works for me anymore I feel. I don't know what to do anymore. I just feel at my wits end today.