Being in love with someone you can’t be with is so hurtful and it really feels like an knife stab in my heart. I wish I never met him. He is so kind and really shows me how live again. He is so sweet towards me and keeps inviting me to his parties even if I’m socially awkward irl. I have deeply fallen for him. But I can’t be with him, it’s impossible for me because he has a gf already and I don’t want to effect his relationships at all.

I know I already vented about this but I video called him recently and my heart feels so broken. I try to fade away and I will keep doing it no matter how much it hurts. I wish I could stay as a friend only but I know myself and I won’t be able to do it. That’s why I have decided to distance myself and fade away from his life forever. I wish I was stronger and not this weak. I’m weak because I fell for him.

I wish him all happiness and luck with his relationship with his beautiful gf.