I have been married for over 13 years . This guy waits on me hand and foot till this day. However I am not his type sexually bedroom wise as he’s into skinny blondes (and I’m literally the opposite). Mind you I have literally only had a handful of orgasms with him in these past 13 years but I love him so much that any intimate moment is pleasure for me. Now usually he’ll do a few pumps and then he’s tired skips 4play and jumps in . but once in a while he’ll start to 4 play for a minute then says “I can’t help it you feel good or taste so good blah blah” and pulls my hips in and begins to screw me .So a few months ago I finally looked at him and said I want to open the marriage because life is short and I love you enough to do this . All I ask is I don’t want to know so keep it discreet and make sure not to bring them to the house as i will do the same . His response was a hard “No” “I’m not doing that” and I just said look I still love u and if u decide not to then that’s you but it’s not fair for me. Long story short I’ve had a few hookups none successful with an orgasm. However my frequent FWB I call him , literally has went above and beyond . Like I’ve always wanted to have my toes sucked or get chocked or finger a guys prostate … he did all of them . He eats me and rales me but I’m so used to my husbands quick pumps that literally every time I’m intimate with my FWB as soon as it feels too good or if it’s longer then a minute of eating me I stop him because I feel bad it takes me longer to get off. And all I want is this orgasm I have been chasing for years! I can rub one out by myself in a minute but when it comes to anyone helping me I get shy or embarrassed . I need someone advice on how I can achieve this orgasm and brake this cycle !