Hi I’ve been getting better the past couple years I’ve struggled with severe social anxiety and depression for all that I can remember of my life I’ve started to stick up for myself and not let people’s words cut so deep wether they meant it or not (I’ve been told im sensitive) anyway I was getting good progress but recently two of my grandparents passed within weeks of eachother and my aunt who has raised me and my sister is on hospice and I just feel so lonely when it gets dark out. my great grandmother was the kindest woman I know a true saint never touched any liquor or substance a day in her life the last few years she suffered from dementia and the day before I knew she was going to pass I had a feeling I woke up the next day and my sister was bent over her crying my step sister was in the corner watching and I was checking her pulse I looked at my step sister and shook my head I still haven’t cried it’s been a few months now. A month before my great grandmother passed my grandmother passed, she was my best friend the last few years of her life she kept pneumonia on and off and had to eat through a feeding tube I haven’t cried for her either ever Since these two amazing woman passed I’ve felt so sad and alone ofc there are many many other factors but I feel like me atleast taking the time to express my deep sadness for their passing would ease my mind as to not think I’m a monster for the lack of shed tears