THEN (not verbatim )

3 AM my time, "that" night:

She flirts with careful flattery, Her verbiage sophisticated but forward as could be

she responds with anticipation and a rush, hiding it under "-blushes- well thank You Ma'am, I'm glad you find such intrigue in me"

She calls my bluff and writes to bite my darker sly sadist

She's trying to challenge me but only to show me she's the greatest

So if she won't switch, what IS her wish? How do I get this one to fall?

Training works wonders on Alphas and hunters, lemme switch to High Protocol

Sure I'd love to see you whip some ass, Alpha subs have lots of class

But wait, not so fast, there's a story to this lass, and you can't disintegrate my future before You know my past

Oh really? Wanna bet? in ten hours you'll be eating ass

*TEN HOURS LATER, WATCHING "SISTERS" TOGETHER*

See Ma'am? I told You! This is back when it could really be ART.

[Ignores my artistic enthusiasm] When I have you worshipping my ass I'll probably be *at least* wearing a corset like that

-Melts like a puddle and tries to say something-

And you know, after having talked to you for what, 10 hours now, you *might* not get discarded the first time I have you lick my pussy if it's less than satisfactory.

Babbles like an idiot until I force out "I'm honored Ma'am"

_________________________THREE HOURS LATER___________________

"So you see Ma'am my brain processes \everything*. Well, almost everything. Low latent inhibition means that every day information doesn't get filtered out. I can make unique connections, stay 10 steps ahead of most conversations (if You're curious, not this one) but the world gets so...loud. Because there's not exactly an off switch. You have to process it all"*

"Sounds like having a box with no light or no sound and a lock wouldn't be scary at all to you. Sounds like it would be a huge relief"

Well Ma'am, I'd really, really have to trust the keyholder after everything that's happened. Sensory dep on its own can help don't get me wrong but..

I will give you your box. I will give you the pain you need to heal from the pain in your head. Like surgery. A doctor cuts you open to help you, no?

But then they give you ibuprofen (or stronger) after Ma'am

And every time I hurt you, you'll get yours. I'll take care of you. Make sure you feel better after you grow for Me. And then I'll put you in your box to rest. I will give you your box, I will be your pain so that I might be your painkiller, and I will give you a dynamic where you can find peace.

______________________________5 HOURS LATER---------------------------------

-blushes- I thought You might like to know I kneeled on rice for a good 8 hours of this talk Ma'am

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Your photos look good. You have the eye.

You've.."inspired" me to figure out how this might work.

________________________2 HOURS LATER---------------

Both asleep...

___________________EVERY DAY FOR ENDLESS DAYS OF JOY AND BLISS , SOME NEW WONDER, SOME NEW EXPERIENCE, SOME NEW SPECIAL. ALWAYS HURT, ALWAYS SOOTHED, ALWAYS LOCKED.

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NOW....

"I'll try and find us a better messaging app"

___A few random questions and daily check ins, everything is going fine---

-Wakes up ready to do her Good Morning Goddess protocol-

"I've thought about it for the past 3 days and..."

[A ringing fills the room, a rushing black engulfs my senses, I feel the room spinning as I fall, seeing myself on the bed with my stuffies. Watching my limp form with the phone dropped on the floor]

Where is my box? I can't find it? I can't see? Goddess help me please I'm begging You I can't see anything.

I'm bleeding. I'm bleeding all inside. I can't stop the tears. The walls are crushing me. I'm scared, I'm scared. I let myself sleep I let myself relax I let myself curl up.

Goddess please

Where's the ibuprofen? Where's my box? Where are Your boots?

Goddess?

Can You hear me?

It hurts Goddess

You hurt me and I need You.

You hurt me and I need my cuddles

I need Your cold

I need Your voice

I need Your eyes.

I'm scared Goddess

I can't see.

I can't be.

Where did you leave the key?

Where did you leave the key?

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I still love You...

Where have You gone?

Wherever you are. please come find your good girl. I'll be here where You put me.

Wherever I am. Only You know how to get here.

That's a good thing

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I can hold onto that until You come back.

I know You will come back.

Because You care about me.

Because You said You'd come for me, once.

And You did. This time, maybe You want to see if I know You will.

This time maybe You want me to Grow.

​

I...think I can stand up..a bit..for a bit.

My legs are so heavy...my head says "be strong for Her.

Goddess wants Her Warrior to climb out of this one herself."

My heart:

"But when I come out will there be another in my stead?"

My soul:

"No matter what else awaits, Your Goddess does. "

As Her Warrior I will vault over any obstacle

As Her slave only She is relevant.

And I am still Her Woman.

And I am still strong.

And I will win.

And I will have my box.

And I will have my Goddess.

My wings spread out, getting ready to fly.