To whoever finally upvoted my last post on my profile because originally it was downvoted, which just... really? If you dislike me that much, shouldn't you be glad I left? Or is the game to just downvote whatever I post no matter what? I can't say I really get it...

But oh well that matters not now. I can't say I'm not glad to see some people care at least, though, that I wasn't around, maybe? I mean I guess that is what the recent upvotes indicate.

I am still struggling with my mental health, probably more now with the pandemic than I was before because my anxiety is sky high. I wish I felt up to sending mail, but right now I just don't. I wish even MORE I felt up to doing thank yous as I have recieved a lot of mail since I left and I continue to recieve a bit here and there. Unfortunately there is no way I could ever catch up on thank yous and before people say I shouldn't have made requests, I stopped before I even realized I wouldn't be able to manage these things anymore. Sometimes there is just very little someone can do to avoid these kinds of situations.

To those I didn't get a chance to thank, I am very sorry but it doesn't mean I don't appreciate your cards and such. I really do, and they mean more than ever lately. It's a shame I don't feel I can post thank yous, because I do so love recieving cards and things in the mail. It makes my day, so know that a lack of a thank you doesn't mean I don't enjoy whatever you sent.

And basically, if you want to know if something arrived or if I'm alive or what my favorite color is, I am trying to check my messages here regularly. Uh, I try daily but sometimes it's every few days especially considering my reddit messages have slowed down almost to a stop, but I mean, I want y'all to be able to contact me if you care to as I consider a lot of you friends. So if you want to message me on here for any reason, feel free to do so.

I may post in threads on reddit here or there, maybe even in some that are mail related, because I am trying to not isolate myself completely, but lately I just haven't felt up to it, maybe I will more so though soon, we'll see.

Anyway, I'm kind of holding my breath until Friday when Animal Crossing New Horizons for the Nintendo Switch comes out. It seems like it will be the kind of distraction I need and I've been waiting for it a long time. If you have a nintendo switch and you plan on playing New Horizons, PLEASE hmu and let's trade switch codes so that maybe we can play together! I would really like that. =)

But until next time, RAoC, I love you all, and I am so thankful to be a part of such a wonderful community. I mean, well, I try to be part of such a wonderful community. A lot of times I don't feel like it and I do wonder if anyone cares I'm gone, but... I dunno how much of that is just in my head. But anyway, please stay safe during these difficult times, wash your hands and all that good stuff. Take care of yourself and be kind to yourself and others. Just do your best, and I'll do mine. That's all that can be asked of us, right?

-Madi ❤💕