I didn't realize how bad losing you fucked me up. I've wallowed for more than half a year watching all the videos we made and thinking about how happy you made me. There's no motivation to date and sex is my only form of physical contact. I had never wanted to be married with kids, but you were the first to do that. The fault was completely mine and I don't blame you for anything. It hurts to admit this but even though I cant stand the idea of you with someone else, I just hope you're happy. I wanted to thank you one last time for showing me what I really needed in my life. I'm letting you go on the 1st but I you will always have a piece of my heart.

Goodboy "Helvectica"