I'm writing you this because I know your life will be better without me contacting you again. I constantly think about reaching out, but I know how I just hope that maybe one day you think of me and read this...

I loved you with all my heart. You were a ball of sunshine to me. You made me feel something I hadn't felt in years, Love. The first time I met you I knew instantly we would fall in love. That was such a rare thing for a sex addict like me. You knew who I was from my profile, but you saw past that. It was probably the first time I'd ever tried to resist the urge to have sex. I know I have an addiction, but I wanted you to know that you were special. You pressured me when we got to your place, and I couldn't resist sex.

You were more physically affectionate to me than anyone ever was. You spoiled me with love and attention a man could only dream of. I LOVED the way you pulled my cock out of my pants and suckled it randomly. My toes would curl every time you gave me oral pleasure. I'd moan and scream until I had to cover my mouth so we wouldn't disturb your neighbors. How could I think about fucking another person when you drained me multiple times during the day? I loved it....

My favorite thing was being the person you felt safest with. You'd squeeze me with love every time I picked you up and held you in my arms. If anyone said something mean to you or hurt you, I'd be writing this from jail.

I did what I do to the people who love me, and I hurt you with my actions. I made a promise to you, and I broke it....

I know we'll never be together again, but I hope you're happy and I want you to know the effect you left on me.

I will always think of you in my heart.

I'm going to delete this in 30 days, but I hope you think of me and read it.