I'm so pissed off right now, and close to crying.

My friends and I have had a discord server since like mid-year 7. We have all of our friends in there. As our friend group grew, so did the server. At first, I wasn't the owner of the server, but at some point, the owner went somewhat inactive on the server and gave me owner. This happened around early-2021. The server had gone inactive for weeks at a time quite often mid-2021, but it was always a generally positive server. It started getting alot more active in late-2021, having conversations near-daily, but still always quite positive.

Early this year, the original owner and her best friend became active again. I was making a joke with one of my friends that he felt uncomfortable about, so I stopped making that joke. I still made jokes about us having sex, as he did too (he wouldn't even like me). The original owner and her close friends didn't like it, and suddenly the friend I was making the joke with turned against it (but still kept making those jokes and expected me to make them too). That drama got all sorted out, but during the time that it was happening, I gave the original owner owner.

The original owner and her friends started messing around with one of the friends, causing him to leave. Although I would call this guy a friend, he's not a very close one. He's quite boring and doesn't have much of a personality, but it is what it is.

This guy kept joining, getting messed with, and then leaving. All that messing with him was was just changing his nickname to shit like "Kitten uwu" and taking away his admin and giving it back the next day.

Another one of these dramas happened over the last couple days, where a couple of my friends went too far, I stopped them from banning him, I stopped the timeouts, and they locked him in a channel so that was the only channel he had. At this point, I feel really sad for him.

Now one of the owners friends have allowed for someone to join whom most of us hate (whilst a couple are really good friends with them). This person lies about their parents abusing them for being lgbt (the reason I know it's a lie is because their parents bought them a pride flag that they used to have hanging in their room). They also physically hurt many of my friends back in '20 and '21 (and sometimes this year too). I was going to end my life this one time, and I wanted to spend my last day with most of my friends. I drifted between groups, spending a bit of time with every group. I wanted to spend time with one of my friends, who was sitting with the person that was just invited AND THEY SAID THAT I COULDN'T SPEND TIME WITH MY FUCKING FRIEND.

This server is going to chaos and I hate it but idk what to do. Its painful to watch my friend group go to shit.