If you've made it here, I applaud you for your due diligence or curiosity. ^_^

Here's the short version:

I'm a self-described "grumpy teddy bear." I'm a gamer, nerd, music lover, story lover, animal lover, "everyone's Dad" type, Demi-sexual, logic-brain, robot, cat-dad, snake-dad, enjoys cooking/baking, amateur gardener, amateur beekeeper, amateur mead-maker, tea > coffee, introverted, INTJ / Type 5, intuition-driven, Cancer-sun, Chinese Chicken year. I won't even begin to cover Kinks; it's too intricate of a topic for short-hand.

Ok. Still interested? Alright. You asked for it.

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About Me

I'm a self-described "Grumpy Teddybear." I'm soft and cuddly, but also just a bit gruff and jaded. I'm also a Goofy Goober and an Android/Robot. We'll just blame it on the fact that I'm just a bit Autistic, ok? :P

I'm Demi... so I much prefer getting to know someone and building a rapport with them before getting involved sexually. Roleplay is a bit different, but I'd still like some kind of connection first. More on my preferences later. Being on the spectrum, I tend to seem kinda intense. They're my person. They become a special interest in a way. I also kinda prefer mono to poly. More on that later too. I'm 5'6", have been around 230 lbs my entire adult life. I'm also a bit wider, skeletally speaking. 18-ish inch shoulder width. I am trying to slowly lose it via calorie deficit and light exercise. I don't want to bulk up and put additional strain on myself until I've lost a bit more.

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Games: I tend to play RPG, Open-world, Sandbox, survival, and souls-like games. I grew up playing games. I've been with them as they evolved. I don't care for PVP as they tend to be very toxic environments and they don't really draw my interest. I much prefer building things up. I would play more MMOs, but they've always felt so repetitive... and they're generally not conducive to solo-players. If my person... my partner was really into one, I'd love to spend time with her in it.

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Nerd: Sci-fi, Fantasy, DND and TTRPG, Anime, Animation/cartoons, and whatever special interests I develop. Some of that plays into my love of a good story. The medium doesn't really matter, but I greatly enjoy animated things.

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Music: I'm all over the place. I would love to explore more, and I do try to latch onto new artists as I find or am recommended them. Metal, Vaporwave, Lo-Fi, Pop, electroswing, Golden-Oldies, Electronic, House, Rock, Classical, Prog Rock, and probably a bunch more. lolLargely, my choice in music depends on how I'm feeling or how I'd like to feel. Lo-Fi is great for yoga and vibing; Electroswing is great for cleaning.

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Animal lover: I'm a cat dad of two and keep a Ball python. I love them all. I've even had an outdoor cat adopt me... and I would love to be adopted by crows, opossum, foxes, and raccoons. I don't want to be a Disney Princess... I want to be the Hermit-type the princess encounters on her adventures through the woods and she befriends all my animal friends.I don't kill spiders when I can help it. I'll either let them live where they are or try to move them out of my home. I will kill them if I get shocked or concerned at them being either Brown Recluse or Black Widow, though. Pretty sure I mistake Wolf Spiders for Brown Recluses a lot, though. Better safe than sorry.

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Cooking: I greatly enjoy cooking, especially for others. I enjoy seeing the enjoyment from the dishes I make on their faces and in the sounds made when they eat what I've prepared. I also enjoy baking sourdough and bread. I don't think I'm great at it, though. Trouble with the fluffiness of the loaf after baking. It always comes out a bit dense.

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Gardening: I TRY to garden. I don't exactly have a natural green-thumb, and life tends to distract me from caring for the plants. I've played with hydroponics and aquaponics before and had some good success from it. I'd love to do it again, but (as with most things I'd love to pursue) I don't exactly have unlimited funds to do all the things.

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Beekeeping & Meadmaking: I was interested in homebrewing mead first. I got involved with my local beekeeping club, became secretary to the club for a year, and started raising bees. This is the beginning of my second year (2024 = year two). I haven't harvested any honey, but I'm just trying to make sure they live first. I lost one colony due to a bad queen... she wasn't making babies like she should've and they died out in the fall. I nearly broke down bad when I saw that. As for the mead-making aspect... It's basically honey-alcohol. It's been around a long time, but it's not been as widespread as beer or wine because we can't exactly demand honey like we can grow grapes or hops or wheat. I've never received a complaint, but I have had suggestions. I've made a few varieties and I've kept a journal on my brewing journey.

Tea is better than coffee. You will never change my mind, and I dare you to try. We've just never done tea right here in the U.S. in my opinion... and I live in the South, so... that's not surprising. Uncle Iroh is probably how I'll end up in my old age.

INTJ: I'm a mastermind-type. I live in a world of details. I see the little things in the big picture, and am likely to come up with some kind of plan of action to deal with things. I tend to notice the little things first, but I'll do it in rapid succession to build a picture of my environment... Imagine taking a flashlight to a room and discovering it piece by piece until the full thing is in view... using the light like an eraser on an image to wipe away the fog of the spaces between things. (Another Autistic thing... if you're not sure what I'm talking about, look up "Monotropism")

Astrology: Well, this isn't everyone's cup of tea, but... Cancer-sun, Aries-Moon, Leo-rising. I'm a spicy meatball of emotion. I may not show it up front, but there's a lot going on inside. If I let you in... just be ready for some crazy currents and thought spirals of causality. I'm also "year of the cock." HA! Sorry, I just think it's fun/funny. Yes, if you're smart/driven... you can just about find out my birthday and year from this information.

Work: I work full-time and am able to support myself. I am not able to fully support another adult in my household and us both be happy and have hobbies. If you're looking for a "sugar daddy" you'll need to look elsewhere, sorry. ^_^; Ideally, we'd both work near full-time and able to support ourselves. This means that we can work together to achieve our ideal home life, vacation, travel, hobbies, ***possibly*** children. Kids aren't a "must," but I would like that.

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Kink & Sexuality

I have a bad history with poly, and am not really keen on trying to be poly. It takes a lot of trust and work... which hasn't ever really been done in a way that I need or just badly. I've also never really been the one to initiate opening up either. My person is my person. They are my better half. The person I can feel free around. Someone I can talk to about anything without fear of... anything. I can trust them with the battered thing I call a heart, and they're able to care for it. I want to entrust it to them so that it can begin to heal and thrive. I can keep it healthy on my own, but it still has that piece it needs from someone else to really thrive.That's how it's always felt.

Frilly stuff aside... Breeding, Rope (Shibari), cockwarming, throat-fucking, petting, hair-pulling, praise & degradation, cuddling, cuddle-fucking, kissing, oral, anal (and training), overstimulation, 69, spanking, public/remote toys, hypno, somno, sedation, free use (between us), light protocol, scratching, biting, wrestling, tickling, wax, ice, body writing, breast play, massage, co-showering, DD/lg, maybe petplay, and I'm probably missing quite a few... but whatever. They'll probably come up.

I feel like Life comes first, so any dynamics that are 24/7 wouldn't be something that gets in the way of daily life.

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The ideal dynamic:

Think... Vanilla Life with a CG/L lifestyle. At home, she's free to be as Little or Pet as much as she wants and/or needs. We communicate needs to each other as best as we can, and find ways to communicate if words aren't easy or enough. She has a space/room/cage (or whatever she'd like) as her "little space space" where she can retreat. The safe place within the greater safe place of the home. She can come to me for her needs; I'll be there to hear her out. If she's too small to make a sandwich, Daddy will make her a sandwich... or if she wants to make me lunch, she can do it. Or maybe we make meals together. She's my little helper. I'm there for her to fall back on when life is just too rough and Adulting is too much. I really enjoy giving her baths and sitting in the bath and cuddling. Sure, I might get hard... but I'm not exactly looking to start anything. Same goes for cuddling.

We're there for each other when we are feeling horny, so... free use for each other. If I'm at work and she wants to give under-desk support, I'm game. Maybe I feel like walking up on her and teasing her with kisses on the neck, scratching, and/or a little massaging... or even under-desk support.

In Public, she's still my little princess. We have to keep from scaring them, though. I'd expect quieter neediness and the rare quick tantrum. Day collar and Home/formal collars if we got to that point... collaring is a big deal to me and isn't taken lightly.

I'm not against dark ageplay (sexual dd/lg), but it's not required. I'm also not against ABDL as long as there's no messing. I receive the most fulfillment knowing she's happy and feels taken care of.

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What I'm looking for:

I want someone who's got their life together enough to AT LEAST have a plan of action to become independent on their own. They do not NEED someone to care for them. I want someone that matches and complements myself. My equal and submissive. They are to be my partner.

If you haven't stopped reading by this point... This might be your breaking point.

My soft spots are (individually): Witchy (or spiritual), Tomboy (but somehow also "baby"?), Alt, artsy, pastel, 420-friendly, non-smoker, animal lover, and self-accepting weirdo. Also: In or Seeking therapy / medication... it's attractive to know they're caring for themselves.

physically, I prefer: white // not BBW but not super skinny // around my height if not shorter (since I know height-difference is a pretty common kink) // some hair... ya know... for the pulling.

These are just preferences. They're not requirements. I know what I'm more attracted to, but a good chemistry can make up for that. If we've got it, then I'll feel drawn to you for some unknown reason.

If you made it here and I haven't scared you off... Thank you and Congratulations. ^_^

I'm sorry for the long "primer," but there's so much to people... and I wanted to provide something of myself for potentials to read.

(Edit 1: Added "Work" and "Ideal Dynamic")