Normaly i dont post many things. But at the moment i have problems to say out what think or what i need (I am drunk an perhaps i delete this post soon). I put all my emotions an needs in my "inner box" and close it. I have to work much at the Moment and try to keep many things in that "box". I hurt many people that want me closer.. but i cant get enough emotions for them.. and that hurts them.. and that fucking hurt me so much that i am afraid of Meeting new people..

But.. at least i can enjoy life sometimes. I love every minute i can smile. Every second i am alive. Every moment i have coffee or something to eat. Life can suck. But it could be worse. So i try to enjoy 😊

Okay.. enough melancolic bullshit for today 😊 i empty my drink and watch TV till i sleep 😌 with RAID SHADOW... no no no no NO! Brain.. stop it!! Ok.. my broken humor is back... 🙄... never gonna giv.... NO! STOP! -.-....... welcome to my brain... 🙃