• When Ted catches Barney picking up the rose pedals in Robin’s bedroom when Robin chooses Kevin over him in “Tick” “Tick” “Tick”.

• Stella leaving Ted at the altar, but what was even more sad was in the following episode when the gang finds out that Stella moved into the city with Tony, even though she refused to do that for Ted, and was going to force him to move to New Jersey. Ted’s big speech to Stella about picking the wrong guy my throat swell up, especially when we find out that the speech was all in his head, and he decided not to say it when he saw how happy Stella, Tony and their daughter were back together again as a family. And then asshole Tony had to write “The Wedding Bride”😂

• Ted realizing he’s alone at the end of “The Time Travelers” when fake Barney tells Ted he’s alone, and then he runs to who we now know as Tracey as he tells her “Hi. I'm Ted Mosby. And exactly forty-five days from now, you and I are gonna meet. And we're gonna fall in love. And we're gonna get married, and... we're gonna have two kids. And we're gonna love them and each other so much. All that is forty-five days away. But I'm here now, I guess, because I want those extra forty-five days. With you, I want each one of them. Look, and if I can't have them, I'll take the forty-five seconds before your boyfriend shows up and punches me in the face, because... I love you. I'm always gonna love you. 'Til the end of my days, and beyond. You'll see.” Knowing now that Tracey had an untimely death made it all the more depressing, because this was him trying to spend more time with the love of his life.

• When Barney regresses to a child when he meets his dad and his family for the first time. Barney becomes obsessively jealous of his younger half-brother for getting to grow up with a dad, his dad, and the scene where Barney is trying to take the basketball hoop off of the garage and he says to his dad “Because if you were gonna be some lame suburban dad, why couldn’t you have been that for me?” I’m crying as I typed that one.

• The episode “Last Words” specifically when Marshall cussed out higher powers for taking away his best friend, “My dad was my hero. And he was my teacher. And he was my best friend. He always came through for me, and now he's just gone. And what am I left with? Thanks a lot God, thank you. You took my father. The greatest man that I have ever known, and you whipped him off this Earth, way too young. And he'll never get to meet our kids, Lily. But we've got this voice mail. Thank you so much for the voice mail, it's a great comfort.” and then he plays the voicemail his dad sent him right before he passed, but he plays it longer than before revealing this message after the pocket dial noises ““Marshall? Oh, it looks like I’ve been calling you for almost five minutes. How’s my pocket sound? Oh, sorry about that, buddy. Um, anyway, your mom and I had such a great time seeing you, and we’re just so proud of you buddy, I love you.” At this point I’m a wreck writing these.

• Way back in season 1 when Ted finds a defeated Marshall sitting on their apartment steps in the rain holding the engagement ring that Lily gave back to him. Seeing Marshall sad is the god damn worst.

• In season 9 when we see glimpses into Ted and Tracey’s future, specifically when they foreshadow Tracey’s death. T and T are overlooking the view from on top of a lighthouse, and Ted is telling Tracey the story of when it was unclear if Robin’s mom would come to her wedding, and she says, “What mother is going to miss her daughter’s wedding?” Seconds later, Ted is holding back tears... and so was I. This show is why I had mental trauma at 16.

I’m sure I’ll end up writing more but this is all I can take right now😂