https://www.reddit.com/user/Intelligent_Hall_190/comments/17rwt16/anathegirlnextdoor/

I get asked this question quite a lot, by people who want me to start OF and Redditors alike, so I thought I would answer it here.

Teddy/Lingerie Pictures

My page officially started on 1/15/24.

"Why are you starting an Only Fans? Why are you doing this?"

I'm starting my OF in November 2023, with absolutely no experience and with a few ideas of what I want to do. It's scary. The simple truth, and the main two reasons, is that first, I'm trying to pay off graduate school debt. Second, I walked away from my divorce six years ago with nothing so I could get the divorce papers signed without a long fight. I'm still glad I did even with the cost.

But, I'm realizing the real reason behind it has become much more than that! Let me explain.

I moved away from home to attend catholic university, which kept me on the straight and narrow (I barely even drank). Right after college, I got married to a very conservative man who got upset if I wore a bikini and only wanted infrequent missionary sex. Before this, I was raised in a strict Irish/Italian catholic family. I've lived a sheltered life. I hadn't experimented much with my sexuality. I never masturbated until I was in college and my shower had a removable wand (well, that's another story). I only had one sexual partner before I was married. I didn't own a sex toy until four years ago!

I experienced a huge level of shame and secrecy that came with all aspects of self pleasure and sex. I felt awkward, self conscious, and embarrassed of my body with my big boobs and my shapely butt. I was taught they should be hidden away and that I should aspire to a conventional standard of beauty. That I should diet, be thin, have a breast reduction which is like a lot of women growing up (and grown women), who are body shamed. I suffered with poor self-confidence and shame about my body. I was married to a controlling person, who made this even worse.

Once I was on my own, I began to explore my true self more, exploring the sexual side of myself more and more, learning what truly turns me on, what I enjoy, and learning to love and appreciate my body. I had a lot of fun, which I'm sure you can imagine (and will fantasize about). I found it extremely liberating and freeing. I still remember watching 50 Shades of Grey for the first time. Then masturbating with my first wand and using a small dildo in my bum, and having several mind-blowing long orgasms in a row.

I'm hopeful this will be a way that I can make a small amount of income with my new found sexual and emotional liberation.

Of course, I'm extremely nervous about doing this (which is an understatement). And I'm full of even more self doubt. Why on Earth will/would anyone pay to see me? When there are so many amazing, perfect, and sexy women who know what they are doing? These old thoughts/doubts about my body keep creeping in along with the lingering shame about my sexuality. The thought of an audience really, really excites me (I'm wet thinking about it) and simultaneously, the judgement terrifies me.