This is something that I wrote to my Owner recently about how much he’s helped me and some of the reasons I worship him as much as I do- I am SO incredibly lucky to belong to him, and feel proud that I was allowed to post it so that others can understand too.

“You have helped me an impossible amount in such a short time. There are still ups and downs of course, but it’s mostly ups- being able to focus more on thinking about you and finally letting go of the feeling of needing to be in control has made things so much easier. I wish it were a quicker process, but I am finally starting to get it through my head that I don’t need to be in control of everything- it’s better when I don’t. Things are better when I let you do the thinking. As long as I stay focused on how to please you and make your days better and how to show how much I worship you, I know that you’ll take care of all of the other little things my brain is too dumb to handle, and you’ll do it so much better than I ever could.

That’s something that I’ve understood logically for a while now, but the emotional part is starting to accept it more and more every day.

You are beyond anything I could have ever hoped for, and I can’t even imagine how much worse of a place I would be in right now if I hadn’t met you when I did. As dramatic as it probably might sound to some people, accepting my place beneath you has saved me in so many ways. You aren’t just the smartest and kindest and most thoughtful person I’ve ever met, but you’re sadistic and interesting and funny and hot- and you embody all of those things in exactly the way that I’ve always needed.