These are the things I desperately need and deserve, but I’m too shy and conservative to do to myself. I’m 20, in shape, black hair, 36E tits, and a good ass. By all accounts pretty. But I never show it off or be adventurous. I feel like I deserve humiliation, embarrassment, exposure, and abuse. No one in my life knows about this side of me. Maybe they will find out???

These are a sample of the things I feel I should be put through to make myself into the true humiliation slut that I should be. Get in my head and make me do these things to myself. Give me tasks and rules. I'll probably complain the whole time. Don't listen, push me.

This is a list of ideas… there are MANY other ways to make all this happen. Be creative. Be cruel. Be abusive. Maybe I’ll add your ideas to the list?!?

1. Lifestyle humiliation

I want to turn my life upside down. Some basic ideas:

• destroy clothes that aren’t sexy or show off enough skin
• if I wear underwear, only thongs and ones that are a size too small
• always having something in my mouth. Create an oral fixation
• make me constantly touch my tits, ass, or pussy
• make me spend my money on slutty clothes, toys, bdsm gear, diapers, or anything involving my own humiliation
• make me a humiliated slut even when I go to bed. Sleep with plugs, dildos, gags. Sleep with the door partially open. Sleep in only diapers.
• clothes with slutty writing or sayings.
• take away certain rights or abilities
• don't compliment anything except my physical appearance. Make me an object

1. Public humiliation

I should always be humiliated and embarrassed in public like the slut I am. Don’t ever let me go out feeling normal or comfortable. Some ideas:

• tight, revealing clothes. No pants. Things that are sizes too small especially for my tits and ass.
• go out with butt plug, vibe, bullet vibe, etc, I have ones that I can control on my phone to go off at random intervals and random intensities.
• car play - make me drive at various levels of undress, or have to disrobe before I get in my car, or only get dressed outside my car. Make me blast porn with my windows down. Once, a sadistic guy had me drive with a dildo, At every red light I had to put it on the steering wheel and suck it.
• make me say humiliating mantra out loud, regardless of who is around
• flashing
• get humiliating temporary temporary tattoos. I have a at-home kit to make my own if needed.
• put me in situations where I’ll have no choice but to humiliate myself
• jogs designed to expose myself
• workouts designed to expose and humiliate myself
• do slutty, humiliating, exposing tasks around my apartment complex.

1. Online humiliation

Through the web, my phone, apps, I should always be worried about what I do online. Ideas:

• create slutty facebooks, twitter, instagram using my real info, hoping no one I know finds it
• “accidentally” posting humiliating pics online -“accidentally” sending texts and pics of explicit nature or suggestive
• live streaming humiliating moments by mistake
• find a way to make me involve ex bfs and current and old friends
• embarrassing photo on my phones Lock Screen.

1. Personality humiliation

Change the way I act and think, what I say in public or around friends.

Get in my head and make me crave this. Make it so I’m never able to hide what I truly am and what I deserve.

Make me speak in 3rd person, calling myself some humiliating name

1. Slut humiliation

• make me use apps to hook up with dominant, abusive men
• set number of cocks to suck per week.
• make me practice giving blowjobs, but in embarrassing and humiliating ways and situations
• make me rent a hotel room with the purpose of sex and self humiliation and exposure.
• I shouldn’t be allowed to eat unless my ass is full
• people who know me should change their views of me, loose respect for me
• Reverse prostitution - make me pay for sex, bjs, or just to have my tits abused

1. Orgasm control

orgasms should be extremely rare. My body is for the pleasure of others.

• orgasms should be transactional. If I am allowed to cum, it should only happen in the most extreme of humiliating circumstances. I should have to do exceptionally embarrassing, humiliating, or exposing things to earn it, and it shouldn't happen in private.

-I shouldn’t masturbate. My pleasure should come from my humiliation, exposure, and pleasing men’s cocks.

1. Diaper humiliation

I hate/love diapers. I only buy thick adult diapers. Most of them crinkle fairly loudly. I wet them only. Most of mine are on the upper end of liquid they can hold. It’s not for everyone, but I feel diapers should be a daily part of my humiliation. Some ideas:

• force me to wet as often as possible
• no changing unless the diaper has started to leak
• wear two diapers, they will be extra bulky and cause me to walk funny
• don’t care about my clothes hiding them. In fact, put me in clothes that will for sure expose my diaper
• wear diaper now matter where I’m going, who I’m with, or what I’m doing.
• make me drink lots. To make it worse, make me drink from a baby bottle
• humping in my diaper

1. Punishment humiliation

I should be constantly punished for hiding my body and being a bitch to men. I can take a lot of pain, and I deserve it. My big tits should always hurt. Some ideas:

• tac bra
• breast slapping, binding
• forced jumping jacks
• using any number of tools to make my ass red
• pussy punishment
• making sure men I’m with know they can abuse my tits, pussy, and ass, and that I’ll ask for more
• give me rewards for finishing tasks by making me do, say, or act out something I'll hate

1. My stuff… I have at my disposal:

• tons of sexy and revealing clothes of all kinds. I by them, I just never wear them. If you can think of it I probably have it. My closet is huge!
• several dozen adult diaper of various brands. I tend to like thicker ones that hold more.
• diaper bags
• onesies with various embarrassing things written on them.
• dildos if various sizes
• butt plugs
• various bondage gear, including cuffs, gags (a fairly large penis gag and others), clamps, blindfolds, and more
• vibes, including a bullet vibe and vibrating butt plug

1. MOST IMPORTANT!!!!

I should be a part of my own downfall. If you give me a task or a rule, make me find a way to make it worse for myself. For example, you tell me to stand in front of a window topless for 5 minutes, my rule would be that I have to shake and bounce my tits the whole time, and slap my ass hard every 15 seconds, and never cover up . There are many ways for me to make things worse, but I should ALWAYS have to do this.

If you’ve read this far, you’ll know I need someone who won’t care about me, who lives to humiliate girls, and will always be cruel and creative. I need more than the usual.

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