Unless you're a parent. Love without boundaries is Abuse! I do not know why you romanticize being abused!

You do not use Jesus Christ or a mother's love for a child as a model for adult relationships or any kind of relationship!

You are not a mother!

You idealize people when they leave! When they're right beside you, you take their love for granted!

You pour your heart out to people who are undeserving! People who are unkind to you! Who doesn't respect you! But when someone is good you belittle them in your mind! How dare you! I spent all of my time upskilling for work, I earn more than you and not just anyone can get to where I am! kayang kaya ko maging mas talented sayo kung gugustuhin ko!

What do you even gain from loving the "unlovable"? Everytime I look at your ex, there was nothing good about her. Will it help you save the world and purify everyone's sins if you love the unlovable! Atleast there was something good that came out of Jesus Christ's death!

And you will be obssessed with anyone who leaves you for a man! It's the anxious side in your attachment! Did you even love them properly before they left you! You do not want them kapag kasama mo sila, kapag pinagpalit ka, doon ka naman nabaliw! You just became obssesed when you found out there is another man!

I do not know when you will understand all of this? When you are 60? 70! When you're in your deathbed!

That is why you must see a therapist! There is something very wrong with your brain kasi parentified ka and you never really received in unconditional love!

I don't know. I don't know. How I could pour my heart out to someone who throws away my love like it's nothing. Your sorrys were empty in the end, and you just wanted to leave me, you only feel you "love" a person when you are being abused. People like you who always leave good relationships and get stuck in toxic ones.

Your idea of "unconditional" love is not romantic. It is not beautiful. It is abuse. It lacks self-respect.

I do not want to think of you anymore. I don't want to feel anything. I want to deactivate, just like you did.