Being objectified is a way of life for you. From the moment you were born your parents would say how cute you were with your boyfriend when it was just you as a young girl playing with your friend. When you were a teen your parents friends or extended family would tell you you're growing into an attractive young lady. Your peers would be mentally undressing you at school and your interactions with men would get more and more uncomfortable. It only ever got worse when you were an adult. Maybe you can't even go to work anymore without worrying what your coworker or boss will think about how you're dressed.

Despite all of that, despite the constant sexual attention from far too young an age, you enjoy your partner seeing you that way. You enjoy the idea of a man seeing you as just an object and just a set of wet holes to fuck. It seems at odds with how you present yourself. You hate it when random people do it but when someone you choose does it, it makes you more turned on than you care to admit. Why and how could this be? If it is something you hate, then why do you enjoy it so much?

In your brain, you've deluded yourself into thinking you can pick and choose who you want to see you as a sexual entity. You believe that empowerment comes from deciding when and where that behavior is appropriate. You understand that when the time comes, you are that piece of meat and you are that set of warm holes for a man to use. It's a self preservation reaction that you are using to save yourself from the truth.

And that truth is that you love the idea of being objectified. You understand that part of your value is in how your body looks and fills out your clothes. It's why you nitpick and obsess over how you look even when you don't realize it. It is because at your core you don't want to face the ugly truth that that is what you are. If you let every man on the street get away with eye fucking you, you'd start to believe it too. But that's not what your beliefs want to tell you. You want to convince yourself that you're more than just your body. That you're more than the sexual gratification you can offer.

Take a look in the mirror and tell me your first thought isn't to pick out all the things about yourself you wish were better or wasn't the way it was. Look in the mirror and try not to see yourself as attractive or hot or whatever your body positivity movement tells you to believe. Even you can't resist sexualizing yourself. This is you in your truest form, and understanding that is your second step towards reaching your true potential.